Happy Chinese Year to all!!
This is the year of Ox..gosh ~ i'm this old le..
They say year of Ox isnt very good, as per past experiences from the seniors..i cant help but agree too..
I created some stupid stunts, or to say, i did somethin really dumb to irritate my fren again..y m i doin so??i dunno myself..i jus feel so dumb n stupid..i cant believe i made her angry again..
for that instance, i felt like killing myself..each time i made her this angry, i realli feel like dying..
sometimes i jus dun understand, y your tolerance to me is so limited..
but actually its the other way round..the truth is, u r being very great, being my fren for so many yrs, giving in to me time n time again..putting up with my nonsense years after years..
sometimes i cant stand myself too..i feel so shameless to ask for her forgivesness for the umpteen times..but i jus cant help it too..i really need her as my fren..i cant lose her..she's my Only Fren..
if u ever get the chance to see this post fren, i sincerely wld like to apologise for all the bad things i've done to you, the worst senarios i've put u in, the kind of exasperation i've given you..i'm shameful, but i really can go on with the list..sigh~
thanks for putting up w me...i promise i will do my best not to do all these again..
the last thing i wld wana do is to lose u, to make u angry w me again..i swear i wun do it anymore..
i realli hope she will give me another chance..i wan her as my fren for life de..till e day we grow old and die..
i'm thankful for the kind soul i met on the way too, for the things she did, to try to make us patch up.
you wun know im refering to u, but i'll rem wat u've done for me gal..i'll rem and will ret u the favour..will doubled the favours ..truly grateful to u..
this year realli din start off nicely for me..same as per 4-5 years back ba..
but i have faith in u fren..not that im taking you for granted, taking oour frenship for granted..
i know u like to b fren w me too..jus tt im way too disappointing le..i knew that myself..
sorry fren.
give me a chance, i'll treasure this chance.
pls almightly gods, pls help me this time too..i really need all your blessings..
