Monday

Boo Hoo Hoo Boo Hoo Hoo~~
My fren is going to be away for 5days..on business trip to penang..
sounds exciting..but she sure looks abit stressed.
Hope everything goes well and smoothly for her there...hope to hear from her..

Stupid me..make some very er xin remarks on Sat..haiz.
Y i made such comments?though its nt meant to anger her and really what i felt, but my tone and the way i bring it across it not too nice or appropriate.,..that's y i angered her..
However she made me search high and low for her for near to an hr..an hr..at 1st i was sad, cos she's ignoring me..then i was worried, cos i lost her, then it got me all so panicky and angry..yes i was really angry..

Dunno y i felt that way, but i was just v v v v v V V ANGRY w myself..
i hate myself to the core..for not being myself..for not expressing wat i should be doing, for doing all these stuffs to anger my fren...for being an idiot walking round the mall..for thinking that my fren dun care or dun wan me le..haiz :(

anyway, the most angry part about myself is, i choose the day before she left penang to anger her..realli feel like killing myself.. :_(

Anyway, i tink i love my fren too much to be angry w her..in the 1st place, it was all my fault.
i've known her so long..i shld have known wat to do wat to said and wat not to..
Sorry Fren..
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Today is a v suai day..
morning i was not in time to reach my fren..
no chance to speak to her..hey but wait, she called me this morning when she was in the duty free shop..hee..Thanks fren~~

Kena a few complaint case..worked like hell till 7pm..only to find out 502 dun operate and stop at far east there le..sigh.
got home only 830pm..sian..

Felt so suai and powerless without fren arnd..
and tdy is just the 1st day.. :(
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I really like Ella day by day,..and im really excited with my fren's suggestion.
To go taiwan for 2 months, at Ping Tung..haha!
Ella is there..i realli love to know her..know her can le, cos i got no room for another fren in me...jus like how i like Elmo, i can only have max 2 in my bed..hehe.
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Hope everything will turn out fine for me too..hope my fren will forgive me and dun be angry with me le..hope papa and mama healthy n happy, hope jie jie and minghui happy oso..hope me n fren oso happy de~~together happy together! hee~ :D