Monday 3 June 2013

Accepting reality

U hv found someone better than me. I'm glad. I know I'm not the best friend n sis. I always bring u troubles n problems more than happiness. Uve made a right choice. What else can I do? Even though I don't wish for us to turn out this way., I'm not given a choice. Uve already chosen.. To let go of me. No matter how hard I try n how long I hang on.. I'll be only hurting you n myself. I've lotsa of regrets up to this point of time. I never knew we would end up this way. I always thought we can pull through all difficulties and be bestest Fren n Sis till the day we grow old n die. We made a pact didn't we. U always tell me in the past that there's no givin up on kinship. What else Shld I be Tinkin of now that all is clearly shown right in front of my eyes? I kept coming up w reasons.. For why u t doing this. The bdae trip to bkk by mysel is the ultimatum. I always thought I can b alone by myself.. N that u r the one who cannot b alone. I'm so wrong.. Terribly wrong.. I never knew I relied on u so much. Every single place we went to together could jus make me break down in tears.. Even in public. I gues that's cos I'm alone in a foreign country.. More vulnerable. What hv u gone through? Mus b living hell for u too my Fren.. I hope I can take your place n suffer instead. Seeing u this unhappy is the last thing I ever wana see.i thought I can b strong for ur sake., I'm jus a good for nothing. Having u decode to let go of me wasn't easy too n u mus hv gone thru painful period too. I'm sorry. I couldn't do anything for u. Perhaps respecting your decision ur choice is the last thing I can do for u.. As ur Fren, as ur sis. I will not hate u..i never will.i promise if there's  nex life n I get to meet u, I'll treasure u.