ushering 2010

It's NEW YEAR EVE!!

Time to set some Resolutions and Goals~~

1/ To earn big bucks
2/ To control my spending, SAVE more!!
3/ To work SMART
4/ To spend more time with my family
5/ To learn how to cook
6/ To learn to bake more cakes
7/ To change job - ARM?
8/ To not make my fren angry with me - Better REM!!
Just 8 for the time being..at least this is what i can think of for the time being only..heh

Hopefully year 2010 will be a good year for me, my Mama, my Papa and sis and bro..n my min sis..
Looking forward if so..heh :D

Jia You Ah Bing!!

X'Mas Eve

Today is a hApPiE DaY!!
MeRrY X'MaS!!!

Heh...got off from work at 1pm! cool..rec'd quite abit of gifts from the colleagues in OBC..heh.

Went home, took pics of the gifts, then went IMM for my lunch n to do some last min shoppin.,.heh

Napped for 1 hr, shiok, shuang~, den went to fren's plc for gift exchange around 6pm..

I love the gift ber n fren gave me! DiaMond Ring from LeeHwa!! luv Luv lUv!!
Hope Ber likes the coach red wrislet i got for her too..
N of cos my fren, hope she likes the surprise i have for her..!!heh..

Yup..fren, if u get the chance to read this blog, that is only meant for surprise.the real x'mas gift is still avail..take ur time ya, choose carefully~~

Went Great World for Kenny Rogers! so packed, crowded..
caught 2 movies, chipmunks 2-cute n CUTEz!!, followed by Sherlock Holmes-V captivative, handsome casts!! looovve it!!

Enjoyed myself! Merry Christmas to all..
:D

AMIT-Ah Mei~分生

分生
作詞：姚若龍　作曲：鄭楠

一個我想不會累　一直往前
一個我動彈不得　傷心欲絕
我不確定幾個我住在心裡面
偶爾像敵人　偶爾像姐妹

一個我在網路上　朋友一堆
一個我在房間裡　獨自面對
灰色的音樂塞滿黑夜　HIGH的想麻醉
好讓翻攪的胃安靜一點　忘了全世界

＊分裂前的熱淚　分裂後的冷眼
越愛誰　越防備　像隻脆弱的刺蝟
分裂中的心碎　分裂後的假面
不快樂不傷悲　情緒埋藏成了地雷
等待爆裂＊

一個我相信用心　會被感覺
一個我大喊真心　會被欺騙
開始的熱烈不停奉獻　後來剩決裂
謊言吞噬了心　帶來刺痛
撕裂的褪變

Repeat　＊　＊

round the corner~~ *jingles*

X'Mas is round the corner!!! Wheeee....
dunno what to get for my colleagues, and most imptly, dunno what to get for my fren n Ber and family..

actually Ber's present settled..hee, thx to fren's idea! whoot!~ Hope she will like it..heh

fren's present..i'm still clueless leh..but anyhow no matter what, i will get her something de..jus like usual years.heh

Looking fwd to the party at Irene's / Ber's place - theme - pyjamas!
Looking fwd to Sun's place - 1st time gathering for x'mas after like 10yrs?!
Looking fwd to our v own X'Mas party at fren's place..but a pity, i cannot go off early for the day leh.. Zzzz.. -_-"

Hopefully 2009 will end good, and 2010 will be a GOoD goOd yEaR!! heh..

I should start planning le..for my career..i tink i will need to take my papers in Jan 10 le..must complete all papers by Mar 10. hope i can achieve this target..*pray*

I wana say..I still love my fren as much as before..haha. *shy*

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FRIDAY~

finally friday..is comin..haiz.
still gt one more day to go~~cant wait any longer le..
Tomorrow better be a GOOD DAY!!!

mIsSin e cOokIe mOnSteR...Elmo's fren..

aiya..the post that i wrote all gone..dunno y leh..

anyway i was rattling over how i'm gonna so miss my dear fren..gonna MISS HER MISS HER MISS HER MISS HER SOOOOOO MUCH!!

But i dun tink she is going to call me..cos it's ex..hmm..
Nvm, i'm still going to miss her..haha.i dun need a gingko nut to remember this feelin~ geez..

Excited that she is going on her 1st business trip..hope it'll b a fun and fruitful one for her..heh..But i tink she feels excited at 1st, den slowly moving towards feelin stressed up..aiya, ah fren, u can do it de la..
jus anyhow do, jus b urself..u r chosen cos u r who u r!!
Getting old le my fren, bad memory..hehehe

Im gonna start to count down le..gonna stay home everyday after work to practice piano, till the day u are back on Friday..Love ya lots fren!! cya soon!! :D

MC

I took my 1st MC today..after i moved on to Offshore.
Hmm..a sign that i'm tired~
Initially i only planned to take to take a break, still having second thoughts dunno whether should really take anot.
However after yesterday's dinner with Scott and friends, really kena indigestion, stomach pain..
This morning woke up with stomach upset, went LS..decided to stay home, see doc, take mc rest..
Things happen for a reason i guess..haha
Din regret my decision for the day..haha.had a really gd time/rest today.. :D

Feels lousy at work..dun really like the job context..
boring,meaningless, not something that i like..
counting down to next change of job..ARM..hope i dun need to wait 18mths for that..sigh~

i have thoughts and ideas, but they are always incomplete..
Thanks to my fren, for always completing what is always in my mind, my sentences, my thoughts..
Only w her help, i'm able to know what is really going on my mind.
haha..yes, i'm this lousy without her..
what is wrong w me..feels like dying..
i dreamt of my ah ma again this morning..i saw her, but she claimed she's not her..
i see her, its her..i couldnt b mistaken..or could it be a sign that i'm losing my memory..my memory of her..??
i wouldnt want that to happen..what is happening to me?my brain seems nt able to function very well these days..im seriously worried..

i know im feelin this way, this anxiety over nothing and mood swing all becos of the stupid monthly affairs..hope this feelin will go away soon.

all is gd all is gd all is gd all is gd all is going to be fine..

l.o.v.e

totally agree!

Stupid Fren~touches heart

This is what my fren got for me despite i made her reali reali angry..




I jus love my fren..reali. :)
Thanks!

Sorry..

When we are ANGRY, our hearts drift apart. To mask the DISTANCE we felt, we instinctively SHOUT instead of speak so the other party can hear us.

But as we SHOUT, we get ANGRIER. And we felt we drift apart further. So we SHOUT even louder...

It is the opposite when we are in love. Not only we do not shout, we whisper into each other ears. Why?

This is because our hearts are very close, almost never apart. As our love deepen, we reach a state of communication where there is no need for words.

We understand each other well enough just by exchanging look.

Therefore, when we are arguing, DO NOT speak words that will make our hearts drift apart. WAIT a few days. When you feel your hearts are no longer far apart, pick up the conversation and continue from there.

----extracted from a blog..v well written indeed..i should have learnt the lesson, sorry fren..i shouldnt have shouted..i'm sorry____-------------

SMS fr her..fr the past....

I happened to come across this sms which i extracted from my N70 phone

-----U'll always say sorry to me when u are feeling insecured, that i'll leave u...u making all these very hard for me. At times, i really do not know what to do...-----

When did she sms me this?

y m i always feeling insecured..?

Y do i make her feel this way?

I mus do somethin abt it..she is my fren..she is supposed to feel jus happy being w me, definately nt this way..

-_-: :(

Sorry Fren..again n again..Sorry..

Dunno wats wrong lately..
Things just dun go thta well for me..
The worst is: i made my fren angry again!!

Y did i do that?
Y did i lose my cool?
Y did i feel unfair?
Y did i make her feel so negatively abt the things i do and say?
Y didnt i try to control the situation and make it better and not worse??
Y y y Y Y y y ?? alot of qns in my mind..!!!
I jus dun understand y my fren tinks i dun wana drive..

she hates me..
she hates my look..
she hates my voice..
she hates my behaviour..
she hates every bit of me..
she just cant stand a min of me..
I hate it when i make her feel this way..
Y m i such a failure??

I cant even talk to her nicely whenever misunderstandin arise..
I cant even get her to hear me out..
I cant even convince her that i dun mean that way that she feel..
I cant even get her to cool down for a second to hear me out..
I jus cant do anything..
I cant even be understanding when she's feelin so tired..
Y m i such a bad fren??

Wat went wrong??
Im afraid she will ignore me again..
Im afraid she will be angry w me..
Im afraid she will be disappointed w me..
Im afraid she tinks i've done tt on purpose..
Im afraid she wun fren me anymore..
Im afraid she will disappear fr my life again..
Im afraid..

Wat shld i do??
I'm once again feelin lost..
I'm once again feelin sad..
I'm once again feelin all the unhappiness that i ever felt again long time back..
I'm once again feelin afraid..
I'm once again feelin insecure..
I'm once again not feelin my existence again...

I hope my fren will not be angry w me le..
I hope my fren dun mean what she said yesterday inside the car..
I hope my fren will cool down and talk to me soon..
I hope we can have a happy autumm festival together..
I hope i can attend my 1st piano class w my fren happily tomorrow..
I hope my fren will fren me again soon..

Plss...someone pls help me..
Ah fren, can u pls dun b angry w me??
I cannot afford to lose u de..u are already my forever fren..wat shld i do to maintain tis 'forever' promise??

I'll do anythin to make u happy again..dun disappear fr my life..

1st day at OBC~

Today is my 1st day at OBC!! :)
not really that excited abt it...hmm.dunno leh.
Mayb only 1 day..so no feelin..dunno wat to expect.haa

Missed my colleagues in cctr alot..really..

hope everything will turn out well, exactly the way i wana it to be..

Jia You Ah Bing!!

Sat 29/08/09

I've watched UP w my fren on lunar 七巧节.
It's a simple show which touches our heart..haha.
Mayb only i feel so touched la..esp when they show the lives of the ah pek and his wife..*sob sob*
I bet my fren love it too..lucky we managed to watch e last screening even though we had to rush abit after work! ;D

Today is e long awaited SAT!
Woke up early in e morning for the class..moves were simple,yet i'm beginning to ache all over le.Lousy me.. Went for breakfast together, den short grocery shopping, bathed and i slept.
Soooo tired..whole body no strength le..
haa..n my fren so naughty lar..kept putting food near my nose..make me hungry nearly cannot SLP!!! >_<

Well i'm up now putting in this new blog entry because i thought we were supposed to go Kwan Im Tong - 四马路there pray de..Mayb my fren too tired decided to postphone ba..not sure leh.
She sure looks more tired den me..let her slp ba.i shall jus wait n surf arnd the net 1st, or play w ah boi..hee
M looking forward to next Sat's class..i reeally wana slim down, tone up!!!! *-* Jiayou!!
We gotta do it tog! fren fren, JIAYOU k?!

Tonight after Mayday's concert, tink i'll go home since Ber coming over to stay.
I tink fren 不好意思say..i shld b more 自动la..nvm, HOME SWEET HOME den..hee
M contented le..shldnt b unhappy or wat de.. *-*

Updates!!

My last day at Call Center is finalised! ~~ 15th sept 2009

Having mixed feelings, happy that i'm finally moving on, say bye bye to manning Hotline!!

Nervous as in dunno wat to expect at the new work envt..dunno if colleagues will be as nice as my current colleagues in CCTR..

I mus admit i'm kinda blessed when it comes to work..my bosses, officers, colleagues are nice, lovely and friendly + helpful to me!

I'm not a v gd colleague to start w, or rather, i feel i always give pple arnd me alot of problems..but they are always so accomodative..i really really am grateful to them all..LOVE them all dearly..~~ hee..

Now feelin kinda of 舍不得.. :( but i mus think futher..for my own future..lol

okie..i mus tell myself everything is gonna b fine! :D :) :P :] :*

I've just given a Celine Card Wallet to my dearest fren!

She seems happie w it..hee, n I'm happie that my fren is HAPPY!! :D

Hope she'll have better luck finding a job she likes soon! Tender Tender Tender!!

N, our 1st KickBoxing class (after breaking for so long) starting this coming Sat 29/8!!

So looking forward to it!! heh..and we will be going to MayDay's concert at 8pm that same day!! whoo whee!!!~~~~~~~~~So looking forward to this sat!

Mayb i'll get a bag-GUCCI for myself or a A/X watch fr Bugis Fortune Center??

hee hee..

k k..i shall stop now..Cont again nex time! :D

Sum up~

Just finished my last episode of L-Word.
It's really a very nice piece of artwork, every character so beautifully and vividly written and acted out!
I love the characters there, especially Alice, who is ever so ready to speak up her mind, so true to her friends, so loyal to her partner..I love Bette, who is so strong and powerful, so ever beautiful and perfect in one way or another~
I just love this drama..a pity the last season 6th ended kinda in a rush..with alot of parts left untold and unexplained..
Suddenly just feel kinda lost~ dunno y..maybe it's like sayin goodbye to someone whom u have known their life inside and out for yrs and suddenly, they are just goin to get out of your life..it's this kind of feeling that scares u..e kind of power and influence that a drama can have on u..ha.it's just me, and my fren..we do sometimes behave and feel kinda similarly..we are of the same kind~from the same pack~
My tributes to the actresses of L-Word! and to the script writer! Kudos!~!~!

I was offered the 2 positions which i've applied within HSBC..surprises surprises~
Had a hard time deciding which to choose..but all thanks to some really good advices from my ex-colleagues,colleagues and of cos supports from my family and my fren..i've decided to take on the position of Offshore AM Client Services.!
Hope i did make a right decision for myself! looking forward to it actually~heheh*

My Milk Toof

This is a Very vEry veRy verY CUTE blogsite!!
Go take a look!
U'll definately fall in love w the 2 cute white things..hahah
Same as loving that smelly white thing..*Woof Woof* hee.*wink*

http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/2009/07/sunday.html

刘力扬-寂寞光年

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云从来
快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我 也值得被关心

一双手 一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么 喊痛

漫长的寂寞 淹没我的难过
我的世界 是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候 让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待 消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了 快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我 也配被人在意

一个人 一直走
看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞 淹没我的难过
我的世界 是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候 让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待 消失的彩虹

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没整个世界是沉默的漩涡有谁能陪我手牵着手出走带我离开空洞的星球
还有什么值得追求还有什么可以拥有把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁能让我相信被爱的理由

Updates

It seems like i have been MIA for quite some time here..heehee..
Kept buzy w alot of stuffs actually..

After Ber's dad passed away shortly after we came back from our yearly BKK trip, i have been keeping my fren company during weekends.
That's bcos Ber is not supposed to go to anyone's house/home for next 100days..

Well, i tried to keep my wkends off, so that i can dawn over at her plc.
We did alot of things, watch alot of movies, dramas, played games, PSP blah blah blah..

Seems like there is not enough time for us to still haha..

Gotta very demoralised over work recently as well..for both fren and me..

Her: Bosses dun seems to appreciate her effort and capability..dissappointments everywhere and like everyday for her.. *jeez..**

Me: Just very sick of work, and my officer S****Y.
Dunno y, sometimes jus feel like she is getting on my nerves.!! well, maybe she feels the same way towards me too..hahah LOL*

I actually applied for alot of positions within HSBC during this period of time..
1st: PCM Client Service Assistant Manager
2nd: Offshore Client Service Associate
3rd: Onshore Premier Service Manager

Went for all 3 interviews.
1st one's out, 2nd and 3rd, praying i'll stand abit of chance..pls pls..
but on the other hand, shucks, cos i'll b getting a $500 paycut!! *sob sob*

Dilemna!!! somebody help me!!
But i tink i shldn't be shortsighted...mus tink far and look at the whole picture..
i need progression!! mus get out of HSBC CCTR soon!!! by tis yr..yes by THIS YEAR!!
This shall b my aim! **JIA YOU**!!

Aim for my fren: before National Day 9 Aug 09, she mus send resumes, go for interviews test market and find a chance to speak to her big boss S****N
She mus do something inorder to have a firm decision soon..cant drag any longer le..!
Jia You too fren!!

Some Pics of the Stuffs i bought from Bangkok :)

Some pics of the stuffs that i bought from my Bangkok trip..

Check it out~~

More pics to come..hee.

Bangkok 6D5N trip 100409 - 150409

We are back from our 6D 5N bangkok trip!!
Alot of things to write..dunno where to start..

On the day before our departure, we heard news fr TV and all media sources that the demonstration in Bangkok were getting pretty bad..Ber and Fren's boss even called their colleagues in Bangkok and were warned nt to go.. Shirin commented we are three idiots preparing to come back with one leg and one hand..woah and ouch~that realli is too much lor.. We knew they were just being concern of our safety, but, no cursings plz.. We were undaunted/bothered by it and proceeded with our plan.. happy*

1st day, Home, Fren's house, Ber's place, Airport
Fried carrot cakes fr coffeeshop, Sakae and GoGo sausages fr Terminal 1, Fishball noodles fr roadside stall
Everything went well on the actual day, except that it rained real heavily on our way to the Airport.. By the time we reached BKK, it was already 10pm +.We went for late supper at the fishball noodle stall near our hotel (Eastin Makkasan) that nite..yummy~~ Yeah!! finally we are back in BKK!!whoo hoo!!!!!

2nd day, Platinum Mall, Central World-Coca, Big C, Hotel
Buffet breakfast in Hotel, Coffee and Donuts, Chicken Wing fr roadside, Coca, toasts and meiji (milk/yakault) fr 7-eleven
The next day, it actually rained quite heavily. Can't believe it..it's April and in BKK and it's raining cats and dogs!~ wth?!?
We gotta change our plan cos of the rain..so we went to Platinum Mall that day instead of Chatuchak..
Well i thought this time round, i will be doing more of window shoppin but hell, i spent jus as much lo!! hahah..
Just cant resist to the temptation to shop, shop and SHOP!!hahaha
We had fun of cos..with loads of stuffs on hand..and we headed to our long awaited COCA for dinner..Guess what, we found the auntie stall that sell Chicken Wing@!!
However a pity, we bought just 1 piece each for ourselves..not enough!!! Chicky Wing, u r greatly missed by us all..at least i know u r missed by Fren..heh*

Gave Fren a surprise by giving her the key chain..hee..
i bet u r really abit surprised cos u din expect to receive any gift then rite fren?hee..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FREN!!! loving u as always *muack*
(shall make up to u w a belated celebration w cakes and birthday song and birthday present of cos! :D )
Previews of the Bdae gift for her~~

Okley Specs

3rd day, Chatuchak, MBK, Hotel
Phay Thai, Tom Yum soup, Fishball noodles, donuts, chicken wings, fruits juices, Korean restuarant, manago glutinious rice, titbits etc..
We took a cab to Chatuchak..woah, pple already starting to spray water le!!
kena sprayed alot of times..suai or blessed??ahahaha...
Weather damn hot lar..but shiok~
Went to MBK to meet Ber's fren Eileen and cousins for dinner..
Initially we planned to go Pratunam Night market after dinner, but sadded~cos of riots, we were told that place was closed..
Went back hotel to rest early..aawwww..disappointments.. :(

4th day, Songkran. Erawan Shrine, Robinson, MBK, Hotel
Macdonald, KFC, Phay thay,fried rice, toast etc fr roadside near Hotel and 7-eleven
The moment we set off in a TukTuk, we kena 'Blessed' w big pool of water manz..
their water is damn cold lo!!shiok!!! real drenched by head to top..hahaha
However today's BKK is abit different fr usual..the whole area near Central World is closed for the day, the roads are quiet w v few pple and cars..
We took train to Robinson, *boring place*, kena alot of water and flour..(pity never take any picture of myself w the 大花猫脸), den to MBK to shop..
even though we din get to go Central World-Isetan and Naraya as planned, we still managed to buy alot of stuffs fr MBK..we jus can shop can??hahah

5th day, Pratunam Day Market, Central World - Naraya, Zen, Big C, Hotel
lunch fr Black Canyon coffee cafe, donuts, Aunt Anne, KFC, titbits
Pratunam market is open!! but alot of stalls not avail..however nonetheless, we bought alot of stuffs lo!! and we had donuts..hee..
Afterwhich we still don't believe Central World is closed for the day again, so we retracked back there and to our surprise, hee, Naraya is filled w tourists lo..hahaha
We managed to get our bras from Zen..lucky us that besides Isetan, they have got another departmental store in Central World..heheh

6th day, Platinum Mall, Hotel, Airport
Foodcourt,Swensen,Western Food in Airport
Last day in Bangkok le..still got lots of shopping to do..especially for Ber..
We woke up early to check out today, den we head straight to Platinum Mall to do last min shopping..
Bought alot of stuffs..walked till back like breaking lor..hahah
But still, we had lotsa fun!!
Dunno m i suai or wat,...or should i say i'm the luckiest among all 3..
I got splashed by a bucket of water again (by a passing lorry) just when i was about to board the cab..Drenched fr head to toe..least expected that manz..arghh!!!
We reached far earlier than expected in airport..lobo for a few hrs before we finally got on our flight back to SG..
So fast and our holiday is coming to an end le..sigh~

It was overall a very fun trip..heh.
My Fren planning to go another time w me..maybe we can consider realli looking around for nice clothings to sell in SG the next time round we go back BKK again..

By the time we reach SG, it was already past midnight..gg to Fren's house to stay for the night..
Papa and Mama jus came back from their 7D trips Korea on same day too..
Everything went smoothly, for me and for Fren..but not so for Ber..

Shall update u guys more on the bad news for Ber and of cos us in the next entry..

Well, hope to get hold of the pics fr Fren soon and hope that tis time round, i can upload some up successfully..hee* Looking forward to our next trip already!! :)

HapPy BiRThDaY FrEN!!!

I wana post some photos..realli excited cos this BKK trip is meant to celebrate my Fren's BDAE.. It's oso the 10th BDAE i've celebrated w her.. Woah~ How time flies!! hahah...

Haven gt much 灵感 for her present.. In e end i got her a key chain..from AGNES B. :)

The Packaging
Opening the Box

Heh..hope she likes it..!! ;)

Anyway this is not the actual present for her la..Cos we already agreed to get her a new specs lo..Just that she haven gt the time to look around for it nia~

heh..i realli hope we will enjoy this upcomin trip and have a wonderful time!! Full 6days! whee!!!

away from work, away from SG!! yeah!!

HapPY bIRthDaY fREn!!

...

I'm going Bangkok again with my dearest fren and Ber in another 5 more days!!

Realli excited about the whole things..yet m sian..full of regrets..

Y mus i make my fren unhappy??sigh~

She ignored me again..for the whole week..

But yest she replied my sms..heh..i was like, SO HAPPY LOr!!

I thought everything will b fine again... .....

Budden yest dinner, i did something tt made her unhappy again..

I helped her ordered something which she don't like to eat..n she made some comments that realli makes feel sad n hurt~~

Unhappy..cos the things that i do just don't make her happy..

We never talked much to each other yesterday, she don't even feel like talkin to me..at least, that's wat i feel..

I missed the chance to do 'grocery shopping' for BKK trip with her tis time round..

I missed just alot of stuffs..i always regretted the things i did to make her unhappy or angry..

But she will always really really make me REGRET BIG TIME for the things i've done..

I jus felt and feel miserable now.. what should i do??

I realli love my fren..for who she is..but all these is getting too hard for me to bear..

I just cant take it when she ignores me,

I just cant take it when she treats me like a nobody..

I just cant be myself when she is unhappy w me..

I'm lost manz..realli lost..

She's just like my torch in my life, w/o her, i'm lost in darkness..

I hope everything will be back to normal..

Fren, pls forgive me and accept me as ur fren, for who i am..

i know u have been doing a fantastic job in this area, cld u pls do it one more time for me??

Regrets..sOrRy

I realli did it again..
I made her angry again..
I am best at making her angry i tink..
Why do i have to say those things??
I realli regretted that..
I shouldn't have said all those, made those silly comments..
I so fucking regret what i've done...

Can i go reverse time and go back to that day??
I swear i won't do the same thing le..
I missed out too much these days..
I missed her too much le...

I'm sorry fren..once again..I'm sorry..

Hope everything will be fine soon..i wana go BKK w u on a v v happy mode/mood de.. :(

Things i bought..More to come~~

I simply bought alot alot of things since last yr..

From what i can rem, i bought

-Sony Ericsson W980i Phone (which i lost it in BKK only after 20days :( )
-Nike Track Shoes
-Sony VAIO SR13GN
-Nokia E66 ~ white
-Coach Wrislet
-Wii Console
-Crumpler Bag ~ red

Seems like this is not the end of the list..there are more to come~~

-slipper (Adidas / Crocs)
-jacket (Puma / Aiddas)
-Canon camera IXUS970i (Paid by my Papa) ....
-Diesel Watch (white)

Am i a shopaholics or what?!?
I really need to practice alot of self constraint and need to do more Fiancial checks every now and then..
But even though i've spent quite a fair bit, i feel all is worth while..believe it or not..to me, all those are money well-spent on the right person.. :)

sometimes i do deserve to pamper myself a little right??hee*

Random weird thoughts, Him or Her..

If you were given a chance to choose, would you like to be a guy or a gal in your next life??

I think i would like to be a guy..even though being a guy needs to go through much more hardships, but it's worth while.. especially for the gal you love..

I would like to give my all to provide her the best that i could, to love her forever..

I just love the thought of working hard for her sake.. to build a family together..to see her smile everyday..

Which would you choose??
ps: i'll be ur bestest fren forever, love ya.

SHE 19th - 22nd Feb

I'M HAPPY!!!

SHE are finally here in SG!! n i managed to get the tickets to their live recording at Mediacorp on Thurs...whoo!!

First time up close with them..u cant imagine how excited i m..especially i'm going w my one and only dearest fren..

I'm happy to see SHE, but what really makes my day is her..

sorry SHE, but i gotta admit that if i were to see them w/o my fren, dun tink i'll be tis happy..

Ella is soo cute!! love her to bits..

Everythings seems like just yesterday, we sat inside the car, chatted for quite some time while waiting for the Q in carpark to clear..Thank god for the chance..

Got tickets to Yoga's Concert..too bad fren cant make it.But i videoed now the most exciting parts of the Concert for her le.. However i still prefer Thurs' live recording..SHE were more funny then..heh

Met Shi Jia for the 1st time..such a cool n pretty gal!

Sat though we din go Q for the autograph session early in the morning~6.30am (as expected), we managed to get a really gd spot to stand n watch the whole 2hrs at EastPoint Mall Simei!!

hahah...it was kinda close up with them too..n fren managed to video down a very hilarous, sexy dance and song sang by SHE tt day too!!

Whoa..we were all like so HIGH~~

Next we rushed all e way to Causeway Point to catch their 2nd appearance there.. this time round we decided to get even up close with them so we went to sqeeze with the youngster just right in front of the stage..haha

There were some jing xian moments..when the securities removed one of the barrier..kena pushed, nope..should said kena sandwiched..stunned n shocked at the same time..

but luckily no harms..hahah Whew~

hahah..really v happy, truely enjoyed ourselves..Looking forward to SHE's concert soon!! Missing them already!!

Thanks to Scottlyn n GF for gettin their signatories for us..

Thanks to my fren..for being there and making every moments with SHE even more perfect..

Treasured every seconds of it..realli..

Went Bt Timah to have our all time fave~~ Black Pepper Crabs!!!

realli yummy..haha.

Din know discussing HK series over Crabs can b so enjoyable..even beta den have crabs with beers la..hahah!!

Met Patricia(Go! Fitness ex colleague) there..she gotten so shocked that she cant control and just grab my face with her 2 hands..haha..i was shocked too lo, by her actions.LOL

Newae the day ended well..with smiles on our faces..

The 3 day SHE zhui zhui zhui was realli FUN FUN FUN!!

I jus love You yOU yOu and YOU fren!!

Just cant get enough...haha

**More pics comin up..**

I should be happy de..i will be happy de..

不开心的第七天。。。

I'm feeling so unhappy...unhappy about alot of stuffs..
The problem lies with me..
I'm sorry to upset my dearest fren

Yr 2009, Ox year~CNY

Happy Chinese Year to all!!

This is the year of Ox..gosh ~ i'm this old le..

They say year of Ox isnt very good, as per past experiences from the seniors..i cant help but agree too..

I created some stupid stunts, or to say, i did somethin really dumb to irritate my fren again..y m i doin so??i dunno myself..i jus feel so dumb n stupid..i cant believe i made her angry again..

for that instance, i felt like killing myself..each time i made her this angry, i realli feel like dying..

sometimes i jus dun understand, y your tolerance to me is so limited..

but actually its the other way round..the truth is, u r being very great, being my fren for so many yrs, giving in to me time n time again..putting up with my nonsense years after years..

sometimes i cant stand myself too..i feel so shameless to ask for her forgivesness for the umpteen times..but i jus cant help it too..i really need her as my fren..i cant lose her..she's my Only Fren..

if u ever get the chance to see this post fren, i sincerely wld like to apologise for all the bad things i've done to you, the worst senarios i've put u in, the kind of exasperation i've given you..i'm shameful, but i really can go on with the list..sigh~

thanks for putting up w me...i promise i will do my best not to do all these again..

the last thing i wld wana do is to lose u, to make u angry w me again..i swear i wun do it anymore..

i realli hope she will give me another chance..i wan her as my fren for life de..till e day we grow old and die..

i'm thankful for the kind soul i met on the way too, for the things she did, to try to make us patch up.

you wun know im refering to u, but i'll rem wat u've done for me gal..i'll rem and will ret u the favour..will doubled the favours ..truly grateful to u..

this year realli din start off nicely for me..same as per 4-5 years back ba..

but i have faith in u fren..not that im taking you for granted, taking oour frenship for granted..

i know u like to b fren w me too..jus tt im way too disappointing le..i knew that myself..

sorry fren.

give me a chance, i'll treasure this chance.

pls almightly gods, pls help me this time too..i really need all your blessings..

HAPPY 2009

HAPPY 2009!!!

A year past just like this, so fast..

Spent my X-Mas at fren's place, together with Ber..

Guess what i've got for X-mas from them? It's really a surprised..haha!

We went shopping a week before X-Mas together.

She asked if one of the Polo Ralph bag is nice and i thought she's getting that for Ber.

Afterwhich, she hinted that she do not have much budget for my prezzie..nvm i thought cos she is already the best present i've gotten since year 1999..hahah

On X-Mas day itself, we cooked our own X-Mas dinner..(actu most of the job done by Ber and Fren..sponsored by Ber..)

Yum yum!! look at the photos..hee

After dinner, we continue with our drama- Il Ji Mae..Very nice show..i simply love Lee Jun Kee who acted Il Ji Mae in the show!!hahaha..

She was so excited that when the clock struck 12, she passed me the green x-mas sock and wished me Merry X-Mas!

Hahah..inside is actu a bottle of bird nest!! hahah...so cute!I really thought that's my X-Mas present my fren got for me tis yr..u know y??cos my fren has been planning for this surprise moment lo..

She started to tell me weeks/days before X-Mas that she has tight budget and that i seems not interested in the gifts she intends to get for me..

I know she has spent quite a fair bit for these few months, so i'm not surprised if she gt me jus the Bird Nest..at least she knew wat i like leh~

However after i opened the X-Mas socks, she proceeded to present me my actual present, the Polo Ralph bag..hee.

So happy!

The moment i got it, i thought to myself, oh my, why is the bag so heavy. Is there a need to put such heavy stuffings in the bag..

It took me at least 5-10mins before i realised what's hidden inside the bag..more and more Bird Nests bottles!!

hahah..thanks so much for the wonderful surprises..Thanks Fren!

Really love it, really appreciate the effort!!haha..

I hope both Ber and Fren is happy with the present i got for them..

A red color LongChamp bag (which she changed to dark brown after her sis got the same design and color as her.. :S)

A red PSP Slim Lite..(fully modified)

This year's X-Mas is fun and heart warming.. even though we did not really plan anything much, but i guess the company matters alot..

Thanks for celebrating X-Mas with me fren..looking forward to the 10th celebration together..

hee..

As for New Year, we went shopping in orchard, had zi char, (BBQ Stingray, Black Pepper Crab, Soup, Chilli KangKong, Sotong YouTiao and created a blackie 'ELMO',hahah) count down in her car, and stayed over her place again..

This is what i call Simple Joy..