Happy Posts~ :)

哇，我好久没blog了！
从台湾回来已有两个月多了！we had lotsa fun in our TAIWAN Trip!
The full 8days are very fruitful!
HJM stayed in same hotel - TS HOTEL with us too..heheh
Too bad din manage to take any pics together..
We din manage to bump into any of the SHE too..but, we went to places that they went to..hee
Happy! *pics pls refer to Mien's Facebook*

回新之后，我们也各自买了i Phone! :D
开心。。 fren 也换了新工。在woodlands..
看得出她还是比较喜欢RS..她的朋友都在那吧。。
希望things will get better for her here.. :)
Be positive, 加油加油fren!

哦，我们之间有去云顶三日游！
Tried alot of stuffs..heh.
we went to the Amusement Park!
and we took 4-5rides!! lol..
i din know i dare to take all these! n i enjoyed myself..thanks to my fren..mus be under the influence of her..hee~ yeah! happy for myself..enjoyed the short trip before the start of her new job.. :D

Tired le..nex time den..Gd Nite everyone! :D

*fren..pls be happy everyday..we'll look after each other till we grow old n die..
no worries de..i'll tke care of u..cos u r my dearest fren.. hugz*

小咋姆n 小霸王！

我最讨厌我自己了。
每次都弄我朋友生气！！
很想打自己！！
:S

我要法自己，弄她气，就要。 。 hmm..
i'll let her decide..to buy somethin for her..
if i dun get to save, serve me right.
Super angry w myself..but i jus love ah boi oso..
Haiz..but stoopid me lar.
y make such a brainless comment..so RUDE lor!
Slap myself...

Hope TW trip will be nice n enjoyable!!
小霸王，希望能遇见你们！！！ :D

Taiwan 2010

I'm going to 台湾!!!
So happy..终于还是依原本计划进行！！
超开心及辛奋的!!!
hahah...
but suddenly got a sad feelin~
if my frens all married or attached le, dun tink i get the chance to travel together again~

why我会突然有这样depressing的thought呢？hmm..

dun care, just enjoy my trip 1st..hehe..Happie~~ !!! :D

posts for this week 16-18.06.10

this week i attended 2 interviews.
1. Interview with CMC markets - Rick Ong
This interview was conducted after work, and it's a very fast and i would say, easy interview.
Before the interview ended, based on the qns the interviewer asked, i got a strong feeling they already want me..kinda desperate for pple i think..tt's y i oso dun care, asked for high pay! haha..
Nex wk shall see what the HR can offer me le..hehehes.. :D

2. Promotion interview with HSBC HR - Catherine Lee
A very nice and friendly lady..1st greeting from her and all my panicky feeling went away.
The interview went smoothly i would say, covering all areas.
Thanks to my fren's helps and advises..luck is with me i think..haha!
Hope i get good news from Boss next week.

160610
after interview, i went back office and saw Orchard flooded!
incredible sight..realli wat a sua ku i m actually..haha
but jus surprised that Orchard will be flooded~ :P

170610
today LNG, tummy pain..
den like easily mood swing..suddenly v unhappy liddat..dunno y.
hmm...originally planned to take mc tomorrow de..but suddenly like got alot of ku lu..
aiyah, jus take la..sian leh..think n think n think..so not like ME!!
:)

180610
Today is Ella's Birthday!!

Happy Birthday my Ella Baby!!
Though im unable to be with her, haha*, i wish her happiness always~
Love ya!

Of cos, i love my fren the most..hee~
:)

生命重要的朋友

给：我生命中一位最重要的朋友，

谢谢你的一切。
因为遇见与认识你，让我感受到生命的完整。
As always, i feel proud and happy to have you my fren..thanks~

你一辈子的朋友

只要。 。 开心。。

好久没看到那个白白臭臭的。。好想念它。
sniff sniff sniff..gg crazy soon le..
ah boi 你还好吗？有想想我吗？
sniff sniff sniff...

最近好像不是很好。。我的朋友也好不开心。。。
我好担心，但我想她不会要我这样为她担心。
她自己一个人能承担吗？
我好想帮她。。因为我要我的朋友开心。
我也不想3个人的友情有什么变化，但如果实事是这个样，我会always be there for her to support her 的，to tide her through the rough patches if any..

我只想单纯的要她开心，我只想做她一辈子的朋友。
希望我们不要在有争吵了。。

Hope we will have more luck, better luck..must find a better and higher pay job soon!
I wana go Taiwan, Australia, alot of places!! together with you and with my family..hee~

*pray*

15 May 2010

在今天的之前，我还很害怕她会sms我叫我别和他们一起看戏。也怕在Alice's 那儿，她不会跟我说任何话。我都错了。我想多了。
是开心的。但心里又担心。

我就是这样茅盾。
可是如果我不想多，也可见我对这件事的严重性。

开心of cos是她有应我，说话。但我们好像就淡不到几句。

是我自己在害怕。是的。因为我每什么脸去要求她做些什么回应。
可是，我又不想miss any chance of speaking to her..

她一值是保持着proactive 的状态。
我想，因该是她不想对我太好了。她每次说我会得寸进尺。:(

我不会的！但我不想她在以为我每次要dictate 她。我不要她不开心。或需她只想保护自己。
我活该。

这一次，she did not reply to any of my apology smses..我不懂这代表什么。

我剪了一个“阿蠢”头回来了。。是在开玩笑吧。
anyway, like what she used to tell me: Let nature takes it's course..

我会努力，不会悔心得。

Robin Hood 里的一句：let us rise and rise, till the lambs become lions. (never give up)

Fren..pls give me a chance..our frenship will last till the end de..

希望ah boi 没事。。 我好想它。。。

SHE

I mus rem to post the day me n fren met and shook SHE and the wonderful concert of cos!
I mus post more happy stuffs..no more unhappiness le..pls ah bing.
U r in control of ur life, whether you wana have happy entries only.. Jia You!

drEam..

everyday's routine- i wake up, i prepare for work den wait for bus..listen to music but actually listening to other voices..slp on bus, dream of stuffs..alighted and i will call her..i know she won't answer, but i just wana call..my hopes are still high..at least i tried..i know i won't regret.. im still e same stupid fren whom she knows and knew..
work is hell lately, i can oni go toilet maybe once per day, go lunch, den mayb another time..never ending work, but hacked and hell with them!
i'll go off latest at 630pm..sometimes i wonder, when did i ever make a right decision?i'm such a failure..i cannot do anything right, yet i'm always complaining..i can't even be guai guai de..always making pple angry.. i'm jus being very spoilt..making alot of pple unhappy..wat is happening?
i go home on time, have dinner, sometimes i jus say i had mine le..my mama asked qns..what should i say?i dun even want to think wat have happened though those voices are always there to remind me every second..
i wanted to know how is her..is she happy w work or stuffs, beside i know the fact that she is angry with me..i wanted to know but i dun dare..it jus feel terrible..
i'm always guessing ..i dun like.
i tell myself, mayb i shld be like her too..like what Ber says, jus ignore let her be will do..
if only i can care less..but i can't.
i really love my fren..i cant possibly act like nothin have happened and jus let things be..moreover i am the caused of it..i should bear responsibilites and go through all these..
To some, its nothing terrible n bad..jus ignoring u mah..but to me, i dunno y..i will jus feel scared.i'm a scaredy cat..whenever i dunno wat to do, i will jus hide..i will jus slp..
i can slp whole day, cause i know my dream will be better den reality..but reality hurts..jus like wat i always dream of..that nobody has ever left..everyone is still with me.when i wakes up, this is the kind of pain which is most unbearable..
i hope all this will end soon and someone will answer to my years of prayer..i jus wish to grow old together with her, be her fren till the day i die.. :(

Actions and Consequences

i think i'm being a spoilt brat..no wonder my fren says she cannot stand me anymore.
Y am i being so Ren Xing ne?
i dun have the rights to do so..

My fren is right to ignore me and be angry with me..
i should stop asking her to stop being angry with me..i should not take away her rights from doing so
My fren is doing the right thing..when you love your friend, you protray tolerance but not indulgence..
If she is not angry with me or if she don't ignore me like what she is doing now, i would not learn right?
She loves me..she treats me as her friend..she dun wana me to be a disgrace, she wants me to learn..but i'm just too stupid.
I'm really a stupid fren..y am i doing this time and time again to make my fren disappointed?

I'm ashamed to sms or talk to her actually..but another side of me just do not wish to lose any contact with her..
My mind is in a struggle..
I even have the urge to sms her to ignore me, cos i deserved it..but i just cannot do it..how?

One must learn to answer to one's action..this is act of a mature adult
I should face up to the truth.
Truth is, i did something bad, and i should be brave to admit it and accept the consequences.
Life is hard..and life is even harder when you lose your fren..
But who can i blame but myself?

阿麼，求求你帮帮我好吗？我好害怕。。

reply

When thing are no longer quantifiable, its where the heart comes in to feel..

伤心。。对不起

以前我就有问过自己这个问题--为什么大多数会写日记时，是当我不开心时。
我想到答案了。
因为我每次不开心时，我没有朋友能述苦，因为每次我会不开心，正因为我把我的唯一的朋友弄伤了，弄火了。我活该，不是吗？

我也不明白，为什么她对我的容忍量是这么的少。
她说是累积的。那是不是在告诉我，这10年来，我所做的一切，她不开心不满意的胜过我的好。。也许这只是我太高估自己了。完全根本一开始都没什么好的吧。。

昨天她所说的一切，一值在我脑海里不停的从复。就好像坏掉的casette,不过播的是伤心的片曲。
我觉的她正处于在很痛苦之中。明明就很受不了我，但却又是我的朋友，我的姐姐。。

问题出现在那里？我为什么找不到呢？应该就是因为这样，我一直一次又一次的伤害她。
我越在乎的事或人，越想保护并一直守住的，往往越没办法办到。反而弄巧反搓的机率很高。

我昨天真的是很伤心。一直跟自己说不要哭，但眼泪就不由自举的一直流。我不是在博取任何东西，相信我，我只是真的真的很想哭。心里真的是很痛。也顾不了型像了。

i did wat i did yest not out of disrespect, i hope u wun lump everything together.
showing disrespect is not jus 1 or 2 incidents n u concluded it de..u shld b able to feel who respect u n who dun in ur life.u shld b able to know who is genuinuely respecting u n who isnt..y am i sentenced jus becos of tt?do u really have to do so fren?
who do not make mistake?everyone does..i might make more den others..but i do things based on concience and i dare say i've always treated u with my upmost respect, trust, love..i have the courage to admit my mistake, n apologise to u.i said i wld change n i realli put in my heart to do so..

i admit i'm always the one who disappoint u e most too..i'm sorry.

请你不要很轻易的就说不要我。这些话说了出口，只会扩大对大家的伤害。我一只深信，你是因为生气，才会说出口的。我们可以一直好好的下去好吗？
我们是朋友，是姐妹，不是情人，因该没有break up的对吗？

我最恨的人，是你，刘蕙冰。如果你的existence只会带来不开心给你身边爱护你的家人和朋友，那你真的是好无价值的一个人。为什么你就不能像ella，做一个照明灯，只把欢乐和笑声带给大家呢？

Monday

Boo Hoo Hoo Boo Hoo Hoo~~
My fren is going to be away for 5days..on business trip to penang..
sounds exciting..but she sure looks abit stressed.
Hope everything goes well and smoothly for her there...hope to hear from her..

Stupid me..make some very er xin remarks on Sat..haiz.
Y i made such comments?though its nt meant to anger her and really what i felt, but my tone and the way i bring it across it not too nice or appropriate.,..that's y i angered her..
However she made me search high and low for her for near to an hr..an hr..at 1st i was sad, cos she's ignoring me..then i was worried, cos i lost her, then it got me all so panicky and angry..yes i was really angry..

Dunno y i felt that way, but i was just v v v v v V V ANGRY w myself..
i hate myself to the core..for not being myself..for not expressing wat i should be doing, for doing all these stuffs to anger my fren...for being an idiot walking round the mall..for thinking that my fren dun care or dun wan me le..haiz :(

anyway, the most angry part about myself is, i choose the day before she left penang to anger her..realli feel like killing myself.. :_(

Anyway, i tink i love my fren too much to be angry w her..in the 1st place, it was all my fault.
i've known her so long..i shld have known wat to do wat to said and wat not to..
Sorry Fren..
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Today is a v suai day..
morning i was not in time to reach my fren..
no chance to speak to her..hey but wait, she called me this morning when she was in the duty free shop..hee..Thanks fren~~

Kena a few complaint case..worked like hell till 7pm..only to find out 502 dun operate and stop at far east there le..sigh.
got home only 830pm..sian..

Felt so suai and powerless without fren arnd..
and tdy is just the 1st day.. :(
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I really like Ella day by day,..and im really excited with my fren's suggestion.
To go taiwan for 2 months, at Ping Tung..haha!
Ella is there..i realli love to know her..know her can le, cos i got no room for another fren in me...jus like how i like Elmo, i can only have max 2 in my bed..hehe.
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Hope everything will turn out fine for me too..hope my fren will forgive me and dun be angry with me le..hope papa and mama healthy n happy, hope jie jie and minghui happy oso..hope me n fren oso happy de~~together happy together! hee~ :D

17 March 2010

Bonus annoucement day..yet im not happy.
No increment, getting sick of job..hardly surviving w the little pay..
sadded~~
:( :( :_(

Welcoming Chinese (TIGER) New Year!

Its the 4th, nope already the 5th day of CNY!!~~~ time passes so fast!

To think i was still very happy preparing and awaiting for new year day to arrive..haha

Reunion dinner as usual, at ah Gong's plc..used to calling it this way already though ah Gong already in heaven..

Was at my fren's plc the nite before, recalling y..

oh ya, went JP and stayed at Starbuck till 12mn+!

then i took the wheels and brought them all home..one by one..den me n mimi lim..heh

happie~

my mama woke me up early in e morning, 8am + i tink..

she told me we need to go off at 1030am!!

i took off fr her plc arnd 9am +..and ended up, i forgotten my mama has got rubber timing too..we reached ah Gong's plc oni arnd 12+..haha

stayed till 2pm+ den i had my 1st meal of the day, with my uncles and 2nd auntie.

not too bad...nothin surprising this yr..haha

Spent the nite at home w my family, happy that we are all together..love the warmth..

it'll be even better if my fren is arnd.. :D

But am happie to get my angbaos fr mama and papa, and of cos their blessings..hee..^

Day 1

woke up quite early tdy..getting all excited to start the day..heh

had a very gd slp, and woke up feelin happy and lucky!

haha.,.did i say lucky?yes..n i thought of this CNY game which i came up myself and played w my fren..we have to tink of 4 chines words, cheng yu and whoever say it, earns $1!! haha..not bad..for a start, but towards the end, i'm left w jus my pants on me..hhahaahaLOL!!

Its Valentine day as well..and as usual, my sweetest fren cum sis will not let me feel lonely..

we watched Valentine Day on that day, w Ber,Sol and Mary..

its a nice movie, sweet..

I was dressed in rocker style..red singlet,long black vest and black leather bag..ha!

Day 2

i reached home quite late, cos yest nite after movie at CCK, we went to CoffeeBean at RailMall to yak yak abit..hee

Slept till 12plus though, got all ready, dressed, den my uncles said they are not comin, so i rested at home, napped again till 5pm.

My fren came over to fetch me, to have dinner at Swensen/IMM, den heads toward KTV-Partyworld!!

Just the 2 of us!! whooT~ i thought, we wont stay till all 4hrs..hah

im so WRONG la!! haha..not enough time actually!!!!

We sang alot of songs...AMIT's songs, SHE's, Tanya's for fren, Rainie's for me...

We got so HOT singing AMIT's new songs that we stood on the sofa and sang real LOUD, Offskeys..who CARES!! hahah..

We are so ENJOYING ourselves can?! haha..and she is like my IDOL!! I'm attending my fren's concert!! whee~~

Unforgettable!!

Dress in white dress with leggings..

Day 3

Stayed over at fren's plc, so morning i was greeted by alot alot of her relatives (mother side).!

Whee..took a few ang baos..hahah!

Went to Sunset Way, den to Holland V in hope of getting Daily Scoop's ice cream but in the end, we bought Venecia from 6th Avenue..

Sol had a small party/gathering for us all at her plc..she cooked pasta, and a few other stuffs which is not bad..

at least she can cook, i cant.. :S

Stayed till 8pm cos we watched a movie - The Blindside,,nice movie too!

Afterwhich, we went to fren's plc again for the New Year goodies!! yummy yum!!

Day 4

Back to reality,,work~ :(

strange the road was real empty..guess alot of pple still on leave..shiok for them..

i worked like hell manz..unhappy la.

but nite time i still managed to go off at 6.15pm, took 502 to IMM and as the roads are kinda clear, it took jus 30mins for me to reach IMM! which is arnd 650pm..RECORD!!!

haha..happy,,but dunno y not much appetite, ate abit oni at Iciban.. :S

Went to fren's plc after bringing Ber home and pumping fuel..

her Winnie auntie is there,,,i got myself another Ang Bao!

hahah..

Big News..!! **Cant tell**

But i feel and felt happy, cos im part of the family..part of her family..

Yest nite before i slept, i jus flicked thru my calendar in search of when i got to be part of her family..the day is 18/11/07. happie~

Tink she is troubled over Ber's troubling words as well..

hope the 'clouds' will clear soon and rainbow will start revealing itself!!

Yawn~~ tired after the whole day..started too early for me le..

M gg to slp now..updates coming up soon!~

Hope this will be a smooth year for me, good health to both my parents and everyone arnd me..

Hope everyone will be happy thru out the year!! Huat Ar!!

Nonsense~~

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Friday, January 15, 2010

if u happen to read this, don't question me.
sometimes, i feel that i shouldn't ask things that i want to know cos i dun have the right to.
sometimes, i feel it's easier for u to talk to others than to me.
sometimes, i wish that i wont have to taste disapointment.
sometimes, i jus have millions of thoughts jumping out at me.
Posted by ~ CATHERINE ~ at 10:43 PM 0 comments
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Happen to see this post from someone's blog..haha.

strange sia..sometimes i feel this way too..but i just dunno how to pen them down like how this blogger does..simple words and sentences..i just dunno how..

just know how to talk alot of nonsense, all not making senses, yet everytime making pple arnd me angry, upset and mistaking me.. :S

I'm sorry fren..for making you angry..but i really dun mean it..

I just hate it when i did things to make my fren unhappy..pls let me be the last to make her unhappy even if i cant make her happy.. **PRAY**

[ti:黑吃黑][ar:张惠妹][al:阿密特]

张惠妹-黑吃黑

作词:陈镇川

作曲:阿弟仔

你的头长在哪边

怎么不在脖子上面

我被你晾了一夜

早餐配著你的黑轮

陪你看警匪片学会以眼还眼

我不还嘴是正在酝酿一举攻坚

对你的笑藏冷箭

你说的那家店明明全面禁菸

你的宵夜到底在哪个家里解决

沾了一头菸臭味

黑吃黑鬼咬鬼爱演我陪你演

是哪个妹又被骗躺著给你安慰

有够可怜我超想见她一面

黑吃黑鬼咬鬼爱演我陪你演

是我也想惦一惦我有多少极限

你的谎言是我的饭后消遣

it's bullshit

it's bullshit

it's bullshit

现在是西元几年

还把劈腿当作表现

爱不爱一念之间不过就是一句再见

折磨你打哈欠还得陪我上街

然后半夜摸著黑上别条船搞鬼

黑夜白天都别睡

你放心我绝对永远笑容满面

找到一天跟你说我的耐心有限

少在那边想挽回

少在那边你的专业谎言对我是种表演

少在那边你的专业眼泪对我是种笑点

少在那边你的专业犯罪对我是种磨练

少在那边准备滚到一边

Rainie Love

BKK Trip 100110-130110

Back from my BKK trip again for year 2010!
It's definately a GREAT way to start off a New Year! hee..
We seems to be going back BKK every 9mths.. I'm so not gonna stop this trend of ours!!
This time round though there's no riots, but we only spent 4days there.. (kinda short)
NOT ENOUGH TIME!!!!!!!~~~~

Arghh...nex time we shld plan a longer trip if we wana go there shop. hee.~~
but we have bigger plans this time round...hopefully the next trip to BKK, we can roll out our plan!
It gonna be a successful plan!! Jia You my fren!! n me of cos! hee..
I shall post some of the pics taken there soon!

Jan is a good month to go shopping in BKK!!

I can't wait for my next trip!! to BKK again and to TW!!
I cant wait to change my job too..!! cant wait..hahaha!!