Wednesday 21 August 2013

Living dead..

It's been 194 days since the day.
I need to go jogging.. I need to study my jap.. I need to catch up on dramas..I need to meet friends for dinner.. For movies.. I need to do a lot a lot a lot of things to keep my mind off from thinking of you every min n sec when I'm free.. Help! I need help! I really needed help.. I cant help myself anymore.. I dunno wat to do anymore.. Someone please.. Please help me.. I really dunno what I can do..
I've been trying ways and means to search for an answer.. I needed an answer. Please.. Tell me what's wrongs. I need to know so that I can change . Please don't forsake me.. 

Life without you around have been really tough.. Tougher than what I can imagine. It's like, I know u r there.. But I can't be with you. We cant be back to how we were last time.. N u r the one who initiated this.. I don't understand why. I must hv caused u a lot of miseries.. We're u glad that you have put a stop to us? Are u truly happy? 

Many years back I once said, in any point of time of I caused u miseries, I'll leave your life. Easier sai than done.. I'm in living hell now. I really don't know why to do but pray every day every chance that I've got.. Pray that we will be back together again.. Pray that we will 破镜重圆,pray that you will have me in your heart still and would love to have me back in your life.. Is this ever possible again? 
I rather die if we were never ever contact again. Just let me die.. I didnt know life without you could be so miserable. I've treated you with sincerity always.. Please know no matter what, knowing you is the proudest and happiest thing I've every done in my life. No regrets.. My only regrets will be not able to make you happy and free from miseries. I'm sorry..