My kind of frenship,kinship

If u think telling me u hate me or telling others u hate me is going to make me go away from your life, u r wrong! YES I'm upset that u treated me this way, treated our frenship jus this way. It means nothing to you when compared to your love. I will accept this fact that you think this way but hell, I Will NOT leave u! I'll be here for u regardless what happen. No matter how much I don't concur with your thinking and doings sometimes, how much I feel you treated me shabbily at times readily to discard, I think I will still standby you, supporting you and catching you when you fall. Anytime when you needed me. This is maybe what you refer as frenship, kinship. There's no temp thing.. So stop telling me it's only temp. It's either u do it or u don't. U want or you don't. U can make changes or u can't. I came w a pure n simple heart accepting u as my bestest Fren, my dear sis. I'm sure u too. Pls dun forget this..it's a lifetime promise. I sincerely hope for the best for u.

Firm

At times I really wish you would stand strong and firm and fight for what we believed in.. That we are nothing but purely sisters n best frens only.. But u didn't. U let everything fall, u Lose focus and u shut me out fr ur life.. Trying to prove to her that u can do without me. That she is most impt to u. Wats there to prove in e 1st place when it has always been like this? Why mus u make changes and in the end makes everything so messy? Why didn't u stand firm n convince her it's not the case again? What happened to u halfway? Where's e u I know? If u cld do this to someone who u 口口声声says it's ur best bud for more than 10yrs, how can another person place completely trust in u? Maybe I'm the naive one.. I dunno how's it's like n how crazy it is to fall in love. All I know it's love have taken over ur mind n u r crazy.. I'm crazy too cos of u..

how to be ur good fren

I really dunno what I've done wrong.. Y r u treating me this way. I jus wan to be ur Fren ur sis. Why Izit so hard? U mus be thinking I'm more of a trouble n nuisance to u now that's y u r shutting me out fr ur life. U need her more than me..of cos.That's y u r not contacting me anymore. Just like this? What happened? I refused to accept that this might be the reason. Cos I know u r not like this. I know u. U must be havin a hard time too. But u simply can't have me n her together  in your life thus u need to make a choice. What happened to what you said when u told me to trust n believe you. That you will make this work? What happen to me oso? Jus 3 days n I'm flustered n worried you might really leave me le.. What happened to me too? Why m I feeling scared and worried? Y?

I cannot think right and cannot focus. My life is in a mess now. I always know if you were to leave me 1 day I'll go crazy. I really m going to now. Pls can you at least tell me I'm just worrying myself? I jus need to give you time off to settle your prob w her. For her to trust you. For her to feel she is your most impt person. I dun need to be your most impt person in your life. I never feel I'll be the one. I jus wana be there for you during your sad and happy moments. Maybe not Everytime but at least you will share w me part of your life. I jus wana be your sis n Fren for life. To be with you in your life journey. Not missing out in any of the stages growing old w u.Not just havin frens n sis in title only. I'm feeling v upset n confused. I dunno y u can jus do that. Jus ignoring me totally out of the blue. How did u do that? Teach me.. I would not be feeling this way If I can do half as good as u. Pls can u tell me ur plans? I will try my best to accommodate. But I need time. Pls bear w me. U know I'll do anything for u but I need more time n I need ur assurance.i can't do this all alone.. Not when I hv so many doubts. Pls I beg u not to leave me. I can't live without u I swear. I hate to see u unhappy. But y m I always the one who brings u unhappiness? Is there nothing u r happy w me about? I thought of what u r doing now is only temp.. But I'm afraid ull get used n not want me anymore. How can i not feel this way?Can u do better den me? This is not how frens Shld b n behave.. I'm not sure how but if we are unhappy, I dun tink it's right. Pls talk to me soon. We need to talk. I'm sure we can work things out. Pls Fren.. Dun leave me this way.. This is not the 1st time u've ignored me. It happened years back when u ignored me for 3nths +. I know u were angry w me then.. But I never knew what it was over.. Now it's happening again n the scary part is, I dun even know if u r unhappy w me or jus dun feel like havin me in ur Fren list anymore. I Need some enlightenment fren. Pls help me..U can do without me anytime i know..i cant.

Trust, believing you

U gave me ur trust, i gave you mine too.This is only temporary..i must support and help you in your quest to win another person's trust..i believe i can do it.I believe you when you say you will not leave me, will not allow me to leave your life.I believe you when you say alot of things we can still do, just that frequency reduced, but will not be totally removed..I believe you when you say you are trying your best to make everything work, i really do. I believe you, cos you are my fren, my mimi lim.I believe everything you said and trust you. You are ignoring me now cos its the best thing to do inorder to win her trust for you. This is only temporary..i will hold on for you.I will adapt for you.I will believe for you.I will do anything for you.We will be frens for life, sisters forever..please believe i can do it for you.i can do it.if you don't let go of me, i wont too.

Aries, my fren

【值得一生珍藏的星座 前五名】
第一名：白羊座
白羊座是最值得你珍惜的星座，白羊座總是能在你迷失的時候幫你找到自我，也許白羊座可能平時會花很多的時候在工作上，可是她的心卻一直有你，雖然沒有表現出來，但是她們的內心就像一團火一樣，在關注著你，如果你一遇到不開心，白羊座敏銳一下子就覺察到了。而且在工作上白羊座也能助你一臂之力，可謂是愛情和工作上最好的伴侶。

哈哈！

我一直以为我们想法一致一样，但现在好象不是了。我是妳的讨厌鬼。妳的绊脚石。你是这样想的。不是吗？我很可笑。😄哈哈

06012013

I did a v stupid thing today..n i dunno why i did it..
i feel v negative..v v negative. i dunno how to be positive..i jus wan you to be happy..n me to be happy.
y izit so difficult? haiz..i can accept whoever u love into my life..but teach me what to do if that person doesnt like me in ur life.. though v v negative, i still TRUST u. Cos u r my fren.. i'll be here for u no matter wat.
I need the assurance..pls tell me i can trust u always.

Lost world

Y m I feelin worried again? Such feelin hasn't come since yvo times.. I'm feelin v lost too. Jus cos I Cldnt contact u. I tried to slp at home..but I rushed down to ur place n realized u r not home. I'm worried. Whr cld u hv gone to alone? U dun like to b alone but u r out by urself. I dunno whr to find u n here I m sitting outside staring into blank.. Jus waiting for ur call or MSG.. 

I'm relieved that u finally SMS me. I really do. I know u r lost, I try to tell u to do things to occupy urself. Even I can't do so.. Y did I give u such a difficult task.. I m such a lousy Fren.. I feel sad for u but there's nothin I can do. Y m I so powerless? I only wan u to be happy. N myself to be happy. Y is it so hard to achieve.. 

I'm lost too. U r too.. In our own world. Can I be positive once again m stay focus? I'm losing my mind. I dunno wat to do.. 

Welcoming 2013

Its the 1st working day of 2013! Happy New Year to all! especially to you know who you are..
As much as i try hard to make everything good to welcome the new year, maintaining high spirit and positive, my body still fails me.I felt sickly tdy..sore throat, tummy ache and nauseous.. hmm..pls let me be well again.Only then i can have the energy to stay very positive, and not do stupid stuffs/things which might hurt people around me, especially people whom i care alot.

Thanks for spending 29 Dec with me..shopping for your Xmas present at funan the whole afternoon, treating me to Melben for crab feast..Thanks for spending time with me. I made a stupid mistake, cos i was being greedy.I thought i could steal another night with you..i made a terrible mistake and i regretted it immediately.The last thing i wana do is make you angry and sad.. That's what i always say when you are angry with me, when i made you sad..but somehow i always did it.I always regret big time, but i never seems to learn..This time, i really made up my mind.I need to be the one making changes,,for you i will put in my best to do it.. I shall stay out of your life..i would not ask you out nor ask if we are meeting..i'll be there for you only when you needed me..i shall not give you unnessary pressure..I do not want you to be caught in between.You are a good sis, my bestest fren..i do not want you to be unhappy cos of me..i want you to be proud to know me, to be my sis, till we are old. I wish and hope you will find happiness, i really do from the bottom of my heart..i hope you can feel my sincerity..but at the same time, i dun wish to see you so tired and unhappy..i dunno wat i can do.U can always give me really good advises, for me to see things clearly..but i seems not able to do so..perhaps giving you some time and space off from me is the best i can do for you now.
U asked what i was unhappy w on that day..i couldnt answer you.Cos i do not know.
You asked whether izit i feel you have no time for me, or that i feel you will not want me anymore..
Yes i felt the above..and i felt sad cos maybe i pity myself.That why you can leave me for others within such a short time frame..that you can forgo what we have been doing together over past few years for the company of another person. I dun understand what is Love, that's why i cannot understand.However i'm beginning to put myself in your shoes to think..i need understand that you have the rights to persue your happiness on your own.I forgot the purpose of my existence. Im here to make you happy, to ensure you dont feel alone and for you to find your happiness. Since you have found it, i should be glad and leave..but i forgotten feelings arent like equations, where minus and plus you get an end result.. there's too much involved..
I believe i can do it..pls give me strength..for your sake.i will have to do it..I trust you..

Hope 2013 will be a better year for everyone, especially my family, u and me. :) Love ya always~